When I dream, I dream in color

I need a real love not just a lover. This is a sentences of Sarah Connor's song 'When I dream'. I know I'm pretty in Connor craze again but that shouldn't be todays topic.I really like this line, somehow all my recent thoughts are in it but let's start at the beginning:

When I dream

Sleep is an unknown word for me at the moment. From 8 to 4 I'm the good pupil who does her homework all the time but doesn't know Math stuff nevertheless. Then I deliver newspaper, have private lessons, am at the Red Cross or do something for our church paper. Then I'm looking for exciting people and topics, solve technique problems with http://docofsci.blogspot.de/ or do organizational stuff. And then, when the time for sleeping has come I write posts like this one.

I love this life. I love writing and I love breaking down barriers. I often think my day should have 30 hours so that I could make all I want to do but so I don't have time for thinking about anything at least. Today I had time for it during the free hour with my best friend Keks and of course a weak moment arrived soon. Normally my mind is free of this thoughts at the day and they just come when I'm dreaming. I had to think on a boy I really like. The thing takes over two years now and even if there has never been a real relationship it hasn't been nothing. I don't know if you know that. You see somebody for the first time and you think 'I want him!', the second thought is 'No, he's too old, too young, too small, too tall or too whatever'. So you dodge this guy because you'd fall in love if the person just says hello but you know it can't work. Shortly after it the person approaches you and you completely block even if you're already in love. After his 12th try you think 'so what' and comply. Of course you're in love but there's no chance because of the reason you've already known before. The love would be there but it's one of the other cruel reasons that can be between two people. Probably weeks full of tears will follow. That's my story but it took months. It takes months. From time to time it gets better but then there's one dream that ruin all. These moments query everything. I live my dream here with this blog but the other dream makes this seem useless.

I dream in color

This part is of course for the Bunte or Colorful Bonbon. So many dreams have already come true and that's why I wanna thank you! Even in hard times you are the ones who help me standing up again.

I need a real love not just a lover

That's the reason why I'm single. Why having a boyfriend for just having one? Surely I met some guys in between I was interested in but why taking an artificial diamond while knowing where the real one lies?

_Marie_

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Christmas chaos

Hello my dears,

Are you looking forward to Christmas? It's like each year: at first you're annoyed by the early Christmas hype and then the feast of love is just around the corner. First shopping are over but I'm mostly baffled what to give, so I need your tips!

Slowly but surely I should start baking cookies but I don't feel like. Although I got the ultimate recipe I know they won't taste as good as my grandma's. If it's because her years of baking experiences, the cute pear cutter or the good air in Baden-Württemberg, I don't know. But who's tired of Christmas sweeties can go to the supermarket to buy chocolate Easter eggs, no joke! Here the boxes of eggs batch at the supermarkets with the title 'Merry Christmas!'.

What else mustn't lack at Christmas is a nice tree and this year it's even my turn to decorate it and after another annoying year my parent bought a plastic tree. Mom, you're the best! By the way, I'll think about some decoration DIYs.

What's as well necessary for Christmas is the suitable music and I wonder when we'll listen to Last Christmas playing on repeat. Yesterday I suddenly started to sing 'Christmas in my heart' of Sarah Connor and when I've started once, I can't stop anymore! It breaks my heart that I can't attend the yesterday started tour but there's a price limit anytime... I wish all visitors and meet & greet winners a lot of fun. Enjoy it!

There's just one single thing missing on my long Christmas chaos list: the markets. I love the smell of wassail and cotton candy but anyway the atmosphere there isn't mine. Actually you should calm down in these weeks but there's one thing disturbing this quiet: crowds of people at narrow markets. On Sunday I've already visited one but I did a runner after 10 minutes because I don't like body contact with strangers that much... It was such a pitty I couldn't see a stall because it was so full.
I hope you'll have a great time before Christmas, don't stress that much & enjoy the 'quiet'.

_Marie_

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To which project Frederic is looking forward and why there‘s no fun when watching movies with him…

Here's the last part of my interview with Frederic Heidorn. You can find the other parts here:

http://colorful-bonbon.blogspot.de/2013/11/if-youre-going-to-do-something-then-do.html
http://colorful-bonbon.blogspot.de/2013/11/read-part-one-here-httpcolorful-bonbon.html

About mothers and E-castings

Read part one and three here:
http://colorful-bonbon.blogspot.de/2013/11/if-youre-going-to-do-something-then-do.html
http://colorful-bonbon.blogspot.de/2013/11/to-which-project-frederic-is-looking.html

If you're going to do something, then do it.

Read part two and three here:
http://colorful-bonbon.blogspot.de/2013/11/read-part-one-here-httpcolorful-bonbon.html
http://colorful-bonbon.blogspot.de/2013/11/to-which-project-frederic-is-looking.html

AWAY

Hello my dears,

Sorry for the short blogging break. A few days faded away till Colorful Bonbon was the way I wanted it to be. But there’s also another topic today. School week was very busy and so I started to get panic on Wednesday evening when I read Frederic Heidorn’s FB-post 'Morgen Abend rocken wir Bayreuth. Ich bin auch vor Ort am Start um Rede & Antwort zu stehen. Peaze Out. #aWayKinotour2013' [Tomorrow we’ll rock Bayreuth. I’ll be there and justify myself] I’m a very big ‚Hand aufs Herz‘ [old German TV soap] fan and even if Frederic Heidorn who played Ronnie Peters hadn’t the best role, I liked him at once. After long thinking about how I could get to Bayreuth, everything was clear on Thursday and the ticket was booked as well.

I saw several people of the film crew there beside Frederic. Shortly after the film started, a young man came in the cinema room. Puh, and I thought he wouldn’t arrive.

It was a strange feeling to see the movie at the big screen while knowing that some of the actors are one row behind you. An actor, you have seen each day on TV for months. Well, I’ll tell you something about Frederic the next days. Today I prefer telling you the movie’s story.

I think already the tile is very interesting: A WAY or AWAY, even the director wasn’t sure. After watching the film, both fit perfectly.

David, acted by Tobias Schmutzler, is a banker. When he’s at a funeral of one of his colleagues, his boss does a speech he hears for the 100^th time now. It is about the everyday same job, working hard for it and be responsible. Curtly David decides to go to India to help the people there and to build a well. He wants his best friend Patrick, Frederic Heidorn, to join him but Patrick wants to found a family and has no problem with his life. When David arrives in India he has some problems because of the different culture and his naiveté but this is over soon. I don’t wanna tell you the movie’s end, just watch it. It is really worth, especially because the film has a second part. It’s kind of a making-of that shows the problems of finding a suitable place and the work with locals. That’s a great idea, you can experience the film much better. It’s also important to add that the director studies in Bayreuth, what means he’s no professional director till now. The main character is acted by his brother by the way. You wouldn’t expect that.

I just can recommend you the movie. If you’ll have the chance to go to a station of the cinema tour, use it! It’s a fantastic thing to speak with the producers afterwards.

You can find the dates here:

http://www.away-film.com/

Have a great movie evening,

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Little bit love

Hello my cuties,

Today I wanna present you a song of Sunrise Avenue’s new album Unholy Ground. I was a bit afraid before listening to it the first time. If you like a band or anything else that much, you have exact imaginations and extreme high demands to everything new. I couldn’t believe that Sunrise Avenue could better the last albums and so I put the CD with mixed feelings in the player.

I’ve already listened to Livesafer, Unholy Ground and Afraid of the midnight before the album release, what made me a bit calm. I really had to cry because I liked all the songs so much. Somehow they weren’t new, they were part of the ‚Sunrise Ave familiy‘.

I decided to present you song number 03: Little bit love. At the beginning Samu's voice sounds very soft and calm. He counts a few things he doesn't need like 'a crown on his head', he just needs a little bit love. Samu again made it to twist me around his finger during the first lines.. 

If I close my eyes, I can imgaine Samu performing this song on stage. He's there, looking with that kind of sad view, and Riku is in his own small world. Sometimes you can watch Riku being into the song and not in this world right now. At the point ‚And it makes me crazy, how I need you baby, no I can’t escape it, ‘cause I just need a little bit love.’ I think they just start jumping around again and I worry that they will fall down some day.. I love this point in the song, Samu's voice sound a bit rough and more demanding now. Well, that's it, when somebody makes you crazy..

But now enough read, I don't wanna tell you everything. Just listen to it :)

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Welcome!

Hello my dears readers,

I wanna welcome you at my new blog. Maybe you already know ‘Buntes Bonbon’, its German version. Until yesterday I mixed the German and English posts there and because of some changes, I wanted to do. I had to make a decision concerning my English texts. Yesterday I talked to http://docofsci.blogspot.de/ and he told me, my vision won’t work. He said the best thing would be two blogs.

When I got up yesterday morning, I haven’t thought that such a difficult decision would wait for me a few hours later. It was a very emotional moment, when I opened this blog. Buntes Bonbon is really important for me and so this completely English blog was a big step into a great future.

I’m ready with all layout stuff and if you wanna visit my German blog, just click on the flag -> It looks nearly the same, I hope, and the posts also will be the same, only translated of course. Sometimes there might be posts that only concern German readers, so you won’t get any version of it, but I think that’s ok.

I was overwhelmed by the number of clicks I got here yesterday in only four hours: 201! You’re so great!

I tried to slide all old posts from Buntes Bonbon to this blog and I hope it all worked, there might be any differences at the writing type or whatever but this will change with this post. I try to give always the best for you and make you a pleasure to read!

You probably already recognized that my English is not the best one. I’ll pass my A-Levels this school year and so I’ll still have a whole life to improve my language. Please comment underneath if you find any mistakes or if you have any ideas for the future, I’m open for everything.

For those who don’t know me:

I’m Marie, 17 years old and from Germany. Blogging is my hobby, it became part of my daily life and I wanna show you parts of it here. I love watching football but also doing typical girl stuff like going shopping or sewing. I fell in love with Finns, especially with the band Sunrise Avenue and footballer Pekka Lagerblom ;)

If you wanna know more, just click through the old posts and I’m sure there’ll be much more to tell you soon.

Thanks for making this experience so special and exciting!

Have a great evening and enjoy weekend’s last hours.

_Marie_

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Same old story

[06.11.2013]
Hello my dears,

I saw again several TV spots about the pollution of the environment because of using plastic bags. After a few minutes you used it, it will stay for 100 years in the environment where it'll danger sea dwellers if somebody puts another trash can into the sea. You probably know what I think about this topic. I really like TV channels who interview some people about it and the people say 'Yeah, plastic bags are very bad, you should do anything against it!' and carry 10 bags in their hands at the same time. Such things just make channels a fool of themselves.

That reminds me of a very dull internship at a duller newspaper. Another girl and I should go to the swimming pool to ask girls about bathing fashion trends and make a photo of them later. One girl, wearing a bathing suit, said, she really hates bathing suits, bikinis would be much better. Well, I didn't publish it..

But back to the topic. I have a very simple solution for this problem. You can take plastic bags in the supermarket but the should cost 1 or 2 euros. With the money you could do some environment protection and the plastic bags would remain their own problems. Or another solution: There are automats for everything, why not for cloth bags?

But now I'll tell you the real story. My mum -I really like her, but concerning environmental protection she's the complete opposite of me- was shocked. Each EU-citizen uses 198 plastic bags a year and my mother wants to change it! For how many years do I tell that now? But if she'll really change it, it doesn't matter whether it was because of me or anybody else.

But now it's your turn: What do you say about this topic, have you already thought about it? If you want, you can send me an email with your opinion to blog.buntes.bonbon@gmail.com or leave a comment here. If there'll be some good ideas and you'll like my Facebookpage, I'll choose the best one and the winner gets an official Buntes Bonbon cloth bag! [Of course it isn't ready at the picture.]

          1.       Think about it.

          2.       Like the Facebookpage

          3.       Write an email with your idea and address.

Like always you can take part from wherever you are till the 30th November 2013.

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Word of the month 11/13

[03.11.2013]

Hello my dears,

Well, I know that I’m already too late but I finally made my term paper. I’m sooo happy! But that’s not about my word of the month ;) [I’ll tell you the story anytime else.]

I thought it would become more and more difficult to find a suitable word but I even had a few this month. I chose:

A few weeks ago we wrote that stupid German test [by the way I got an A] and we should give away our mobile phones. We were about 60 people and 60 cell phones. Well there were 58 smartphones and two real ‚retro-‘ cell phones. One of them was mine. I always had kind of problems with phones. Either I turned it off or it passed away when I needed it. I was pretty content with my old Samsung and it wasn’t a problem for me that I got texts two or three days later.

As you know I wanna ‚develop‘ the Bunte Bonbon and that’s why I sent a lot of messages at different people because of different stuff the last weeks. When I was lucky my phone even rang a few times but bad if your phone turns off on its own..

For weeks ago I have decided to buy a new mobile, preferred of Nokia [you know why]. And of course I asked whether I should buy a normal mobile or a smartphone. There’s nearly no difference at the prices nowadays and you have some advantages with a smartphone. After hours of researches on the Internet I decided to buy a Nokia Lumia 520. A Windows Phone for 130,00€. In my opinion that’s really ok and I wonder what’s different/better at these -sooo cool-  fruit products. I don’t understand why people spend the quintuple price for nearly the same thing.

Now I’m one of these smartphone owners but I’m already old-fashioned because I haven’t bought a fruit thing. Nokia is much better, hihi :)

After three weeks I’m very happy with the mobile phone. It lies good in the hand and it already has a gum case so it doesn’t slip away that easy. I bought a foil for the display what was a great thing because it fell down the first day. I don’t know why, nobody touched it.. that’ll be a secret forever probably. 

The using is very easy, also for a blunderer like me, I could do most of the settings on my own. The only thing I don’t know is how to change the ringing into a song. The camera is pretty good and the battery lasts long. Yesterday I booked an Internet flat for 4,95€ a month and I also wonder why some people pay 30€ or more for that thing.

If somebody has any questions according the Lumia 520 just ask below. I wish you a good start into the month and cross your fingers so that I’ll discover my new phone soon. But probably that’ll take longer than a month..

Have a good night,

_Marie_

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Spring-cleaning

[31.10.2013]
Hello my dears,

Even it's not spring now, I did a great spring-cleaning. Well, I'm just looking for some excuses not to write my term paper ;) 

But back to the cleaning stuff. I put everything out of all boxes and cupboards, cleaned it and put away all trash. It's unbelievable how much rubbish is everywhere. I'm very rigorous with things I haven't worn or I haven't used for a longer time. I think it's useless to keep all this stuff. Even if my room is still full, I feel a bit free now ;) Every time after such an activity my mum asks me where all the things were in my room and I wonder as well! I'm the master of packing ;)

Now I wanna make some stickers at the computer so I can find all new sorted things. Or do you think that's too much? 

_Marie_

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I’ll change

[27.10.2013]
Hello my dears,
How are you? Today it’ll be a bit philosophical. Everything is about the question: Can people change? Is the sentence ‚I’ll change‘ true? Well, you should always believe in the positive sides of a human but I’m not sure anymore. I don’t sit in a small room crying all the time but I thought about this thing today pretty much.  
To help you understanding me, I’ll give you two examples.  

Let’s start with my former best friend. I really liked her but someday I was annoyed of her ignorance and her arrogant type but the most annoying thing was the way she treated others. She’s not the kind of girl all boys fall in love with. Freaks fall in love with her because they know they’ll have a chance. That’s ok, I’m sure there are some freaks who are really kind and maybe the love of your life.

He was the love of her life.

And he, too. He number 3 as well. And also the hes number 4 and 5 in two weeks. Coevally of course. I already was against it when she did it. She hasn’t changed, she did the same cruel thing with each boy. I hated it and I didn’t want to be her friend anymore but I didn’t make to ‘break it off’ with her. One day there was such a daily situation she reacted like always: Making a mistake, turning everything that it’s the other’s fault, waiting for an apology, teasing the other because of it. But this time I didn’t apologize. After a few weeks I got some SMS, letters, papers. ‘I’ll change’ bla bla. She involved other people who were the bad people before. Then one day I answered. I wrote everything I thought but this wasn’t a reason for her to stop texting. Meanwhile I had to change my number. Now it’s better. When I hear at school what things she did, I’m so happy I don’t have to deal with her anymore.

Now it’s more about the first impression and I’ll tell you this story although half of the people knowing me, know who it is.

A buddy had a new girlfriend and I didn’t like her from the first meeting on, somehow I thought she’s a double-dealer.
Every time I saw her, I liked her a little bit less but somehow I had to deal with the situation. No idea why, we became friends. We chatted a lot and we had a lot of fun when we met. One day I got to know a very handsome young man because of them. He lived very far away and maybe he was a bit too old and so I decided to avoid him from the first second. I knew, I’d fell in love with him otherwise. He was so insistent I couldn’t say no someday. I fell in love with him. Then I told my buddy’s girlfriend the whole story, I was so glad to have her during this time. At my next visit we all went to a restaurant together. But what happened then? Was she my date’s date? It was disgusting to see how she threw herself on him. Well, I thought I’d overreact and just imagine all these things. After all she had a boyfriend and she was a few years older than my date. I don’t know if I overreacted this day. I know that she played a wicked game with my buddy but I don’t wanna speak about it here.   

And once again I knew: people don’t change!

What do you say about this? Do you know other cases or do you agree?

_Marie_

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Four months :)

[27.10.2013]
Hello my dears

In four months it's time for Sunrise Avenue in Munich! I can’t await it. I hope there’ll be no test this day and I really have no idea what to do if there’s one.. Who of you’ll be there as well? Have you already bought tickets?

I watched 'The voice of whatever' the last days and I have to say, I can’t stand this show. I just watch it because of Samu Haber but otherwise it annoys me. Well, the guy opening the door is pretty great, honestly! The show’s basics are not bad but let’s be honest: Only a few great singers have a chance on the music market when being not that handsome. That’s sad of course, but that’s life. The whole package has to be suitable. You have to like the person on TV. That’s why I haven’t heard Sunrise Ave for such a long time, there wasn’t a connection. Not it is fortunately.

By the way: Last week the new Sunrise Ave album  'Unholy Ground' was released, the first one I witnessed really. I mean the waiting time and all news concerning new music stuff. Because I wanted to get it on time, I ordered it directly in Finland. What should I say, it was too late. Two days I ago I listened the first time to the new songs. I cried all the time. I like all albums but Unholy Ground is the best one! The songs are so dreamlike. The go from your ear to your heart in one second. Great fun when listening to it! Maybe I’ll present you some songs the next days :)

_Marie_

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The search of a sense..

[23.10.2013] 

Hello my cute readers,

You might know that I'm a big footballfan but last week something stupid happened.
Despite the bad weather I was of course at the derby SC Bonbonhausen - FC Schokolade last week. I was so happy that my favourite player, let's call him praline, made it from the second team to the first again and so I thought the day could just be great. The SC Bonbonhausen even had a few chances and -believe me- that's very very very rare. And also praline showed his best tricks, well at least till the beginnng of the second half-time. Then something happened I don't wanna see again. Praline did a perfect job for another player but somebody fouled him although the ball was already somewhere else. Praline fell on the ground and shouted as loud as I've never heard a shout before. 

Do you know these moments when watching football and your heart stops beating? It's not amazing that the risk for a heart attack is much higher than usual, when watching football..

Well, after a few minutes praline stood up, brushed a tear away and looked at me with a face contorted with pain. Well. How do you look at such a moment and what do you say? Do you say anything?

The next day football was on TV and I had to think at praline. 20 men running after a ball and two who want to repel it. Is there anything more useless in this world? I'm sure most of the men wouldn't run after the woman of their dream for 90 minutes..
And why do you take this high risk of injuries? I don't wanna know which colour's you could have seen at praline's thigh.

I have no idea what's football's magic. I don't know why nearly everybody is banned of football and I don't know why I'm already looking forward to the next KSC match.
And by the way boys, I wanna see three points!

_Marie_

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